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Heyo peeps.....
A very eventful day today:
1. Woke up, got bitched at like there's tomorrow and pissed my mom off with my sarcasm.... Because she was yelling at me and trying to make me feel bad for shit that I didn't do... Anyway she was saying something and I cut her off and said "Um, I'm gonna be late for work..." Which, pissed her off some more of course.... But I'll tell ya this, my ass was not late for work, peoples....
2. Got to work and did the normal routine.... Then this bitch starst cursing me out....
"This is fucking bullshit!! I paid for these tickets and I fucking got here early! You can't do this shit to me!! I'm a paying customer and blah blah blah FUCKING BLAH!"
Me: "*Blank expression* I WAS gonna help you out and get you in a movie for free, but you're bitching ruined it for you...."
"How dare you speak to me like that?! *Insert more bitching*"
So then one of my manager comes and I thought I was gonna get fired at this point and then she started bitching at him too.... So he said "I'm not gonna reprimand you for cursing, she deserved it."
Jumpin' Jesus!!! My ass was saved!!!
3. Got home and rode my bike around all of Huntington. Then drove to SuperTarget and picked up Lostprophets Start Something album...It's awesome....
That's about it.....
Song for the masses:
Wake Up by Lostprophets
So are we lost or do we know
which direction we should go?
Sit around and wait for someone to take our hands and lead the way.
Cause everyday we're getting older
and everyday we all get colder
We're sick of waiting for our answers.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.
Are we meant to take the pain?
Should we sit around and wait?
Are we being saved or was it another lie you made to make us hate?
Cause everyday we're getting older
and everyday we all get colder
We're sick of waiting for our answers.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.
It's not enough
to let it rush
wait until
it's over.
We're sick of waiting for our answers.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
So make a move.
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[27 Jun 2004|12:36am] |
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Slipknot - Opium of the People |
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Still got a lotta crap to sort out but I am making some progress...... Millions of things going thru this mind of mine and I can't take my usual refuge of writing them down because it's all muddled and distorted....
Other than that, I am feeling cool.... Talked to Michi last nite... And that was an experience to say the least, heh.... It went from a lot of things: Formal chit-chat, ghetto talking, her being weird, her mints that made her hyper, matthew having slimy hands, me being a zebra, and then a bit about friendship in the end. Which is still unfinished. So we still gotta talk about that, Dizzle.
And on a minor note: I am currently bored out of my wits and thinking about stuffs with a certain person who called me the other day. If you are reading this then: Yes I understand how you feel now and sometimes it is inevitable, my friend. And that is possibly because that's your mind telling you "you need some space for a week or 2." Believe me, it helps....
Song of the night:
Where is Everybody? by Nine Inch Nails
Well did you happen to catch?
Or did it happen so fast, and what you thought would always last has passed you by
Is everything speeding up, or I am just slowing down?
I'm just spinning around, and I don’t know why.
All the pieces don’t fit, but I really didn’t give a shit
I never wanted to be like you
But for all I aspire, I am really a liar
And I’m running out of things I can do
I’d like to stay, but everyday
Everything pushes me farther away
If you could show, help me to know
How it's supposed to be, where did it go?
Pleading, and needing,
And bleeding, and breathing
Feeding, exceeding
Where is everybody?
Trying, and lying
Defying, denying
Crying, and dying
Where is everybody?
Well, ok, enough, you’ve had you’re fun
But come on, there has got to be someone
Hasn’t yet become, so numb, and succomb
And goddamn, I am so tired of pretending,
Wishing I was ending,
When all I’m really doing is trying to hide
And Keep it inside,
Fill it with lies
Open my eyes, maybe I wish I could try
Pleading, and needing,
And bleeding, and breathing
Feeding, exceeding
Where is everybody?
Trying, and lying
Defying, denying
Crying, and dying
Where is everybody?
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[26 Jun 2004|02:15am] |
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 Wide awake.... |
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Black Sabbath - Paranoid |
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Just wrote another.... a little twist on "Into the Void" by NIN.....
http://www.livejournal.com/users/wicked_shadow/
GO THERE AND BE SATISFIED BY "HAWT SKILLZ"!!!!
Another song for the masses this night:
Paranoid by Black Sabbath
Finished with my woman 'cause she couldn't help me with my mind
people think that I'm insane because I am frowning all the time
All day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfy
'Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify
Can you help me occupy my brain?
Oh yeah
I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind
Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel like love to me is so unreal
And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life, I wish I could but it's too late
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| "I am the product of your conduct" |
[24 Jun 2004|01:23am] |
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 Welcome to the transformation |
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Slipknot - Welcome |
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Many many thoughts.... I gotta sort em out.... Then I'll know how to think and figure this out....
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[22 Jun 2004|12:55am] |
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Loren's back....
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[21 Jun 2004|01:03am] |
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 The warm effect of Led Zepplin |
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Led Zepplin - Stairway to Heaven |
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Just finished a song... A bit different in this one because it plays 2 opposite roles.... Working on another.... The next one I write will be dedicated to Kirstie.... I'll be working on it for awhile cuz I got a messload of ideas that I need to put on paper... Then I need to piece it all together in a certain order and fashion, etc.... As you can see, I'm putting a lotta effort into this and why shouldn't I? It's for Kay, my little sister ;)
I'll probably be done with it by the end of the month so look out for it....
In other news:
My day went by fast considering I haven't slept at all... Took a total number of 5 showers in this span of 24 hrs as well... Picked up the complete season of this anime called Record of Lodoss War to rent from Blockbuster... I plan to drain that damned Anime sect... XD Watched the end of Blazing Saddles with my mom.... Funny ass 70's movie directed by Mel Brooks....
I'll give a scene from the movie:
Ok there's a black sheriff played by Clinton Little I believe and his partner played by Gene Wilder...
In this scene they're both dressed up as KKK members and are trying to join the Klan.... Then one of the actual Klan members takes the hood off of the Sheriff's head, revealing him to be the black man he is.... They all gasp as he says this hilarious one-liner:
"And for my next impression.... Jesse Owens!"
(They both haul ass out of there as they're chased by the KKK)
Lmao, it was awesome.....
Right now I'm just talking to Lar and Ash on AIM, watching listening to hard rock....
And that's all to report now, children...
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| "I won't let you walk away without hearing what I have to say" |
[20 Jun 2004|03:30am] |
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"We too feel alone..." |
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Slipknot - Danger-Keep Away |
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gone...... everyone's gone.... i've lost it all.... i let them all slip away.... or they let themselves slip away in some cases.... anyway, it's not a good combination being sleepless and alone.... i'm afraid of tomorrow because i have a feeling what tomorrow might bring: my downfall.... i'm tired of trying to hide all of this angst and pain... it's not good for me and it's starting to worry my family too.... i think lauren is starting to catch on too... whatever, i have no clue why she's with me thru all of this... she could just as easily leave me and join her friends in harmony... she makes me happy, i can say that much... she makes me smile and i love her and never thanked for it... "harmony", peace... words i used to happily say i had... the only fucking harmony i have is in my drowning agony.... heh, that sounded poetic but w/e.... everyone has gone and good for them.... i'm not mad... i dont hate them... im sick of hating... it's eating away at me.... i dunno how to end this... i'm not gonna say im sorry... i'm sick of that too.... im not telling them to be my friends again... they dont have to... i'd just like them to stop hating me.... i'd like to end it all but that's not possible... i still hold this stupid belief of "well, i didnt start it... so i'm not the one to finish it..." heh, call me crazy but i'm a deranged maniac who follows certain idealistic principles... blame me... they know who they are.... just 2 months ago i had it all there... that harmony... that peace... in 2 months it all fucking went downhill... in fucking 2 months... so yah, i unblocked my journal... comment if you want, make fun of me, ridicule me, i just dont fucking care anymore....
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| "Tragic visions you slowly stole my life" |
[20 Jun 2004|01:49am] |
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"I need serenity" |
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Godsmack - Serenity (Video) |
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i just realized that it's funny how someone can make fun of me about things that they themselves do too... but of course they can't be wrong no matter what.... his friends play along and agree when they're too blind to see that as much as i hate to admit, we're just alike.... maybe that's why we got along so well.... whatever.... doesn't matter now, now does it?
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| "What makes me think that it'll all work out in the end?" |
[20 Jun 2004|01:20am] |
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Flaw - Only the Strong |
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ever get the feeling you've been left behind? by everything? by everyone? and then in turn you'd like to leave all of that behind? yeah...whatever...that's basically how i feel...
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| "Thinking... Sinking.." |
[17 Jun 2004|10:49pm] |
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Now what does the title say? |
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Nine Inch Nails - The Frail/The Wretched |
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Today.... Involved a lotta serious stuff... I did a lotta thinking about things past and things present... The reason this entry isn't private is because it has to do with my friends:
I made a lotta mistakes putting my trust in a lotta people.... Those people who I put most of my trust in and vice versa I left in the dust... I left them behind and abandoned them all.. I'm not gonna say any names because they know they are, my original group of friends.... And some of my new freshmen friends that I made deep connections with and kinda ignored them... For that, I am sorry....
These past few days I've been thinking those individuals and realized that even though I did what I did they still talked to me, didnt shun me, and was still there for me... That's how fsckin' cool they are.. I'm glad I've restored my friendship with them and now I have a good outlook for this summer whether it be my last or not: Because with those friends, it's gonna rock....
So, whatever, had to get that off my chest.... I feel a hell of a lot better now..... Presently, I am just sitting here listening to some kick NIN and chatting with peoples........
Hope to have a repeat and more of those phone convos.... :p
Heh, Later peeps
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[17 Jun 2004|12:41am] |
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Wardo, Britt, Ally on phone........ |
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I'm bored...... It's so early.....
Random Statements #4948959840564-05-656565894098646 code 9'er alpha SEVEN:
"Edward, you're a bitch in a hurricane..."
Britt: "Marshmallows"
"EAT DIRT"
Britt: "Marshmallows and lettuce..."
*Allison watching Blink 182's "Feeling This*
"People are licking the glass and NOW THEY'RE TAKING THEIR CLOTHES OFF!!!!"
[Insert more random crap here.]
"Boom boom boobies because I wanna goto a boom boom bar when I get older...."
And now Edward's trying to seduce me..... Im scared..... O.O
Later
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[16 Jun 2004|08:32pm] |
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 Death in Boredom |
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In Flames - The Quiet Place (Video) |
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My day..... Let's see:
PLAYED MADDEN
ATE WENDY'S
Yah..... Very exciting.... -.-
*Gouges eyes out with spoon*
Here's the damn song of the day: [Adopted from "Bite Me" Brit]
Spinning further, deeper
I know you're out to try me
I'm not in this to be a slave
Push the dirt
Make me feel
Locate what swallows life
Night bird you build my world
...and then I close my eyes
Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show
Bow down
I'm in a much better place now
Everything's in place
So much brighter from today
A king in my own mind
Drown the monster
Make all bad dreams go away
Whatever it takes to keep your hands free
Open scars
The quiet place
All the bridges fall to the ground
And you say you sacrificed
(and then I close my eyes)
Touch me now
Used to be afraid to let it show, bow down
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place
So much better from today
A king in my own mind
(touch me new)
A king in my own mind
(touch me now)
A king in my own mind
(touch me now)
Used to be afraid to let it show, bow down (bow down)
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place
So much better from today
A king in my own mind...
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| Minor Update |
[16 Jun 2004|02:53am] |
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Insomnia-crazed |
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White Zombie - More Human Than Human (Video) |
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Yah... I just realized that even if I could go to Jessica's b-day thing, I wouldn't... Now that I know that those people are going, then no way in hell I'd go... One, because I dunno what I'd do if I saw the cocksucker.... Two, if I did do something, that'd be complete disrespect to Jess and I'd never do her that way... So overall it's best if I didnt go.....
On a minor note, here is a song:
More Human Than Human by White Zombie
Yeah, I am the astro creep,
A demolition style hell american freak - yeah
I am the crawling dead,
A phantom in a box, shadow in your head say
Acid suicide freedom of the blast,
Read the fucker lies yeah
Scratch off the broken skin,
Tear into my heart,
Make me do it again
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
Yeah, I am the jigsaw man
I turn the world around with a skeleton hand say
I am electric head,
A cannibal core,
A television said yeah
Do not victimize,
Read the mother fucker psychoholic lies yeah
Into a psychic war,
I tear my soul apart and I eat it some more
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
Yeah, i am the ripper man,
A locomotion mind,
Love american style yeah
I am the nexus one,
i want more life,
Fucker i ain't done yeah
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
More human than human
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| Webs of Thoughts: Part 1, Insomnia |
[16 Jun 2004|01:26am] |
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Nine Inch Nails - A Warm Place (Instrumental) |
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Sleep.....
(Dreams...)
Sleepless...
(Nightmares)
Reality.....
(Isn't too real...)
In life......
(There's no rest....)
Escape....
(Your world)
To see.....
(The realism of all your dreams)
It's all pieced together in those sleepless nights....
(It all fits together when you have time to think....)
Time......
(Your sleepless thoughts aren't bound by time....)
I need more time to think.....
(So you can become stronger...)
So I can become stronger in spirit........
So I can become stronger in thought.......
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| a fuckslantedsaviornut |
[15 Jun 2004|01:13am] |
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Korn - Shoots and Ladders (Video) |
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Lo and behold children.... For this one here is drowning in this shallow pool named boredom:
[Tonight, watch a young man sit at his computer in the dark, chatting with some friends.]
Young man: Chitter chitter chitter chitter..... *Tapping away at keys*
[Now, this young man is focusing his boredom on his best friend, Wardo.]
the zero method: dude
DeadCellZombie16: yea
the zero method: wtf is that purple moon godess in your l/j?
DeadCellZombie16: that is melissa
the zero method: O
DeadCellZombie16: she started an lj today
the zero method: I knew that.... >.>
the zero method: Bitch
DeadCellZombie16: lol
DeadCellZombie16: slut
DeadCellZombie16: cock
DeadCellZombie16: monkey
DeadCellZombie16: whore
DeadCellZombie16: bitch
DeadCellZombie16: cock
DeadCellZombie16: slapper
the zero method: fuckslantedsaviornut
DeadCellZombie16: lmao
the zero method: damn straight
[Thus, children a /FUCKSLANTEDSAVIORNUT/ was born. What adventures will it endure? Find out next time... Good night, kiddies.]
.......... Oh and here's a comic.... :]
http://bits.battle-forum.com/?2004-05-29-00
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| "Here Comes The Pain!" |
[14 Jun 2004|08:24pm] |
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Slipknot - (Sic) |
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I just revamped my whole l/j.... Took me a while to come up with the whole idea and piece it all together, I'll admit....So drop a line to tell me what you think of it....
Later
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[14 Jun 2004|02:12pm] |
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Chimaira - I Reject |
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You're an Etch-a-Sketch!! You're the creative,
artsy type who doesn't need to actually utilize
a single muscle group in order to have fun.
Doesn't matter though, you're still cool.
What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are most likely to be the Vampire
Incubus!
The Incubus is the greatest example of all that is
monstrous about vampirism. Seemingly having no
regrets, it thrives on and thoroughly enjoys
the act of killing, the partaking of blood, the
stealing of life; and along the same lines, the
incubus loves to display the might of its
vampire powers, mostly focusing on the ones
that have the darkest of natures. It usually
chooses to physically appear as twisted as the
desires within, but also can choose to mask
itself with the deceptive vampire charm and
appear beautiful. Because of its utter embrace
of the darkness, the incubus can easily be a
most powerful vampire.
Dominant personality trait: Evil
Dominant color: Black
Fictional Vampire Examples: Dracula ('Dracula
2000'), Nosferatu ('Nosferatu')
Curious to see how you would fare as a creature of
the night? Come this way...
Vampire Classification Quiz (w/ Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
Sounds pretty promising.....
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[04 Jun 2004|08:38pm] |
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Slipknot - Surfacing (Live Video) |
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Band practice fucking owned... We picked up a new guitarist: A new frosh from Brasil... His name is Eduardo, but we call him Brasil... And let me tell you, he amazed us today.... I'll just give a little not on how bad ass this kid is: He learned and knows how to play ALL of Led Zepplin's "Stairway to Heaven".... Yah, that's "Goddage" right there.... The only problem during the practice was the annoyance of Vivi, Vanessa, Janely, and Geneva. And what really pissed me off was that Vivi and Vanessa were being loud and obnoxious just to annoy the fsck outta me and piss me off... So that's why I've decided to really be an asshole for our future practices....
Anyway, Muncy really helped us out and it was just great: We're working on my song "What I Am, What I Was". Matt owned on drumming, Wardo's gotten a hell of a lot better on bass, and Danny is still learning the ropes, but he's getting there. I actually sang and Muncy approved of our sound, so we're good to go. Brasil was a major help, too.. He's got a lot of good ideas and good judgement on stuff... He's now a proud member of Wasted Theory... The only problem is that we may lose just as fast: He's going back to Brasil for the summer and he may stay there, but he doesn't know yet... I am hoping to God or whoever's up there that he decides to come back. But it's all in his hands, so we hope he decides to stay with us. If he doesn't, than we're fucked, but we cannot be angry at him because I understand that that is his home......
That's about it and today really didn't seem like the last day of school... Really not too worried cuz I'll virtually see the same faces during the summer: Oh and speaking of which, Loren'll be back during the summer too... If you all hadn't noticed, he hasn't been around lately and that's because he's just taking a break...
So that's about all to report....
Later.....
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